Saturday, November 3, 2012

I Wish

For the past two years I have been in this little situation. Well actually it is a big situation. Here is the problem: I have absolutely no clue what to do with my life....job wise that is. You see I am already enrolled in college and by the end of this year I should have my associates degree (hopefully) but after I have that little piece of paper that says "hooray, you completed your associates degree: by the way this 'diploma' does not really mean anything," I don't know what to do after that. Do I still go to school? Do I just take a break for a while and see if maybe I will figure it out then? I don't even think I am making sense right now. I am just scared and I feel that I should know already what I should be doing. I turned 20 this year this is the beginning of my adult life. It scares me. I have these dreams, these huge dreams but I don't know how to achieve them or what path to even take in the right direction. I am picturing my life beautifully but in reality all thats happening in my life is confusion. I do not want to fall or be left behind with everyone else my age. But I feel like I am falling behind the crowd. I just wish that I knew like everyone else knows. I wish life was easier than how I imagined it to be. I wish my dad was still alive so he could help me out. I wish I had answers to all of my questions. I wish for many many things right now. 

Monday, October 29, 2012

Little Blue Dress

For some strange reason people assume that women feel good in either a "little black dress" or even a "little red dress" - not for me. I feel my best in my little blue dress. I think I would cry if I ever wore a red dress because I know that everyone in the room would stare at me, because hello...the color red attracts attention and having all eyes on me would kill me. Then there is the black dress and that color is just plain boring and sad. But a blue dress? It's perfect. It attracts attention but only in the slightest way, not only that but I do actually feel my best in this color. I have gotten so many compliments on how I can pull off this color, so I suppose that this shade of blue is just right for me. Sadly this is the only of item of clothing that I have in this color. So I am challenging myself to try and figure out different ways to wear this dress. I will post all of the ways that I figure out how to change it up. This is going to be fun!

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Happy Halloween

I was a fox for halloween this year. I made my outfit all on my own - and would you believe that I spend only $6.79 on it all!? I created the ears and the tail (which isn't pictured) all by hand and it was the first time that I had sewn anything in my life. The tail came out to be so cute, I should probably post pictures of it. Anyways, the point of this is just to say that:

1. Since I have been broke this school year I have been incredibly crafty lately. 
2. I love these people in the pictures above. 
3. I think I am going to enjoy this whole blogging thing.

This October has been so great. Like I said before, I knew it was going to be restful and my goodness it was. Now its time to just wait for November to get here and then craziness will commence.

xoxo, melissa

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Goodbye September

I am so happy that September is finally coming to a close. This has been one of the most busiest months for me. Don't get me wrong I love to stay busy - but trying to juggle school, church, friends, babysitting, etc. all at once can be a challenge. That is why I am so grateful for October. I do not really have much on my to do list other than my studies and that makes me slightly happy. I think it's a good thing that I will have practically nothing to do this month because once November and December get here...that is when my absolute crazy schedule will begin again. So I am raising my glass to toast October. The only thing I am looking forward to is passing all of my tests and trying to decide on what to be for halloween. Oh and let me not forget all of the chill coffee and tea drinking times that I will be having this month. Hooray. 

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Once Again

I seem to tell myself this every beginning of a semester, "I'm not going to procrastinate, I'm not going to procrastinate" but alas I do and I always end up getting hurt in the end. Why can I not just learn my lesson?! It really is starting to frustrate me because I never listen to myself. Although I have noticed that I do most of my procrastination when I am doing something that is too difficult for me to accomplish.

Now I am realizing that I wish I was the type of person that fights in order to get through a difficult situation. Maybe I am a fighter? I have been through hardships, I didnt procrastinate was not letting me put those situations in the back burner. Yeah, I am a fighter.

But still - when it comes to difficult school work I just flat out do not want to do it. Someone please shoot me now. I dont even know why I am in school to begin with. Why? Seriously, why? I guess I'll just keep fighting through the school work and once I get through another semester maybe then I will find out. 

Sunday, September 2, 2012


This is going to be interesting. I have been using tumblr as my main blogging site, but for a while now I have been wanting to switch over to blogspot; I feel that it is way more personal. I'm excited! I'm finally figuring out how to use everything and getting familiar with all of the links and what nots.

Well hello. For those of you who have been reading my tumblr page thanks. For those of you who havent this is the link for it:
check out some of my posts if you'd like.

So this is basically just for me and my loved ones to read because I am planning on deleting my facebook account pretty soon. Mainly this is just a place I will write down my thoughts. I have noticed that I usually blog when I am feeling really sad. I will tell you straight up that I am not some emo girl who mopes around all the time. I am probably one of the happiest people that you will meet (especially with all of the tragic events that I have been through in the past two years). So I apologize in advance. I'll try and post on here when I'm feeling happy too! This is just going to be me documenting important events that happen in my life...and moments when I am bored out of my mind.

Welcome to my thoughts and thank you for reading!! xoxo