Friday, October 14, 2016

smitten

There are so many things that I want to write about. One is about finding a new job. I knew that the right job was going to come up and it did, I am sooooo happy where I am at. Another thing is school. My graduation invitations came in the mail this week and I got a little emotional. I haven't been freaking out as much as I thought I would be this far into the semester, but I can tell that my body is slowly tingling with anxiety about the next couple of months. I have two more months left. Wow. The last thing is my sweet boyfriend. I am completely smitten with him. I love him. I absolutely love him. Long distance is so hard. There have been a couple times where I think, "is this all really worth it?" It sucks missing the guy that you care so deeply about. But I am lucky to have a guy who LOOOOOOVES to communicate. I am smiling now just thinking about him. There are so many things to consider when it comes to long distance. My main thought, which I try to ignore is, "when is the finish line to all of this?" Having that thought linger in the back of your mind leads to problems and we have come to the conclusion that we will just not think about it and take every day as it is. I should probably write a whole post about long distance and all of the negative thoughts that come along with it. That'll be a super long post, so who knows if I'll get around to it. Unless someone out there really wants to read about it. But anyways, my life has been slowly knitting itself back together. I am at a somewhat good place right now. Lets just see how these next few weeks go.

Monday, September 12, 2016

Please Stop Ghosting Me.

Why does looking for a new job feel like I'm dating again? I literally feel like I am on tinder swiping through different jobs. I get excited when I find a job that pays semi-decent. I get extremely excited when I get that email or call saying, "hey we like your resume! You want to come on in for an interview?" Then I get dressed up and practice my confidence. I'm usually not nervous when I go into interviews because I know that I am pretty great at what I want to do and I am generally a well liked person. Anyways, the interview always goes well and I always hear, "you will hear from us soon." I walk away feeling empowered and elated. Days and weeks go by and all I see in my inbox are coupons for H&M, Pizza Hut, and Forever21. I was ghosted by job. This has happened to me, within two months, about  f i v e  freaking times. I know five times doesn't sound like a lot, but when you are constantly sending out your resume to internships and part-time positions, five times can get to you. I'm trying to not get discouraged. I know that the right job is out there for me, I know that the right internship is waiting for me. My savings account may be dwindling and I find myself eating butter and bread for breakfast and cereal for dinner, but its ok. Something is going to come up.

Anyways, that was my rant and that has been the cause of the stress in my life so far. Besides that everything is going great! I leave for Colorado on Friday so I can spend time with my boyfriend. I'm swooning for this guy real hard. He is a freaking gem and everyday I am reminded at how lucky I am to have him in my life. 

That's the end of this post. I was ranting and then gushing. Now here are the pictures :)