Tuesday, January 12, 2016

HEY YA'LL


It's been a while. 
The whole reason behind the MIA thing is because...well, do I have to explain myself?
Not really.
...
So much has happened since I last wrote my feelings down in this thing.
2015 ended and 2016 began,
and let me tell you, 
2016 has been off to an amazing start.
I welcomed in the New Year in the best way possible. 
Watching Jane the Virgin and eating chocolate chip cookies until my stomach felt as though it would explode. 
Let me not forget to mention the champaign mixed with elderflower & rose lemonade. 
I'm going to market that cocktail because it was heavenly.

^ (and just fyi, THIS IS NOT MY BOYFRIEND JUST A GOOD OL' FRIEND OF NINE YEARS) 
Nothing new has changed with me. 
Other than I am mentally stronger than I was last year. 
I've become better with handling my feelings and not letting the small stuff get to me.
I'm becoming more of a "go with the flow" type of girl and that doesn't scare me anymore.
I've also become better with handling my sugar intake. 
January began my sugar fast and I haven't had a lick of sugar.
No cookies, cakes, cupcakes, cookies & cream ice cream, chocolate, candy, pecan pie, coconut cream pie, chocolate pie, rhubarb pie, banana cream pie,
man I miss pie.
*19 more days until I can eat more pie*


I have much to look forward to this year. 
This is my senior year of my undergrad!! Officially.
All these years working hard to finally get to this point. 
I'm scared and ready.
Last year was incredibly stressful and I can only imagine how much more this year will be.


I'm also turning 24 this year. 24 is my favorite number and I believe it will be one of the best years ever or the year that I die.
Either one I'm perfectly content with.
Yeah, I know that sounded emo. 
Maybe this is the year that I study abroad? 
That is if I have the money in time. 
If I go, I go, if not then whatever.
This is also the year where I feel as though I'm completely over you.
I know for a fact that I am over the past and the small moments that we had.
This makes me over the moon happy.
You were one of the best and worst parts of the past couple of years.
I wish you all the best and all the happiness that your heart can desire.
I'm coming at this year head strong and filled to the brim with love.
So much love that I become teary eyed.
I'm blessed with the best family, even greater friends, and wonderful memories.


I hope to find time this year to take time for myself and just breathe.
I missed out on that last year.
Maybe get a massage? Facial? Get my nails done did? Lush it up in the bathtub?
...
I'm ready for you 2016. I welcome you with all the bear hugs that my scrawny arms can handle.