Friday, March 27, 2015

First Ever Vlog!

while I was sick last week I became obsessed with something.
My cousin introduced me to the world of "vlogging" on YouTube and fell in loooove.
So I figured I would try and make one. 
It's simple and quite possibly the most boring thing you will ever watch, 
but I had so much fun learning how to shoot and edit this thing.
I may do more in the future. I don't know.
I hope you don't find my voice too annoying.

Oh yeah, this is a link to the recipe for the "fried" oreos incase some of you want to try them out :)
Something Swanky "Deep Fried" Oreos

Saturday, March 21, 2015

Somewhat Getting Better

Since I've been laying in bed sick for the past few days I finally found enough energy to somewhat edit pictures and show you all what I've been up to.

My cousin turned 23! This girl is basically my other sister. Growing up we were always inseparable. Since our birthdays are basically a month apart from each other we even had our quinceanera together. Yes y'all, I had a quince. I am half mexican after all. The pictures from that embarrassing day will haunt both of us for the rest of our lives. But it sure is a blessing to grow up with someone who is the same age as you.
(I know you're reading this Caro, I LOVE YOU! and you better get me good gifts for my bday. jk jk jk, but for real...15 days left)
I went skydiving over spring break and had the best time of my life. A few of my coworkers were talking about going and I was scared that they would chicken out. But no! We all succeeded and had our adrenaline pumping through our bodies like never before. I kind of regret not hiring the photographer to take pictures of me in the sky. But that crap was wayyyyy to expensive and this girl is saving to buy a new car and has to pay for tuition. Most likely I'll be doing it again and will get the pictures during that time.
But for real. If you are on the fence about going to skydiving just do it!! I have never been so scared in my life. I'm glad I did it because I can now compare any fear that I have in the future to how I felt right before jumping out of a plane at 14,000 feet. I think public speaking will no longer be a fear of mine.
Oh random fun fact. They were selling girl scout cookies and I ate the whole box right before I got into the plane. Jumping out of a plane with a sugar high was crazy fun. I could think of another high to jump out but that would be illegal. muahaha.
So apparently yesterday was national macaron day? I had no idea until I gathered all of the energy that I could to get out of bed and meet a friend of mine for coffee. The cafe that I always go to was really packed and I was like "whats the big deal" turns out they were selling these beauties for $1!!!!
I have been feeling pretty sad for the past few days and mannnn this was a gift from above. I'm glad I went! I texted my sister about the amazing news and quickly enough, her and her boyfriend met me there also. Her boyfriend is the coolest. This kind of sounds pathetic but I really hope to find someone like him one day. It's weird that my little sister is in the amazing relationship and I'm always stuck with guys who just use me. Maybe it's because I let it happen though. Whatever.
Macarons for $1! I ate like 10 of those things in order to soothe my broken heart and sore body.
I woke up this morning and found this card on my bed along with medicine. Haha my mom is the greatest.
I don't know what kind of sickness I have but it's terrible. To be honest, I think I got it from him but it could also be a coincidence. I'm supposed to be going to the rodeo today but with how I have been feeling these past few days I am not sure I can handle large crowds of people and the smell of farm animals. I was looking forward to eating fried oreos and fried red velvet cake *major major sad face*. I'll just fry my own oreos I guess.

Spring break is almost over. Blahhhh.

Friday, March 20, 2015

Sick & Sad & Getting Over It

I now know my worth. 
I knew my worth but somehow lost sight of it when I agreed. 
I'm not sure what it was this time. 
maybe because I'm no longer shy around you (but still am when I eat)
maybe its because communication doesn't exist between us
never has and never will. 
maybe its because we both got too confident.
maybe its because I didn't properly say goodbye. 
maybe I think you're mad but quite frankly I don't care if you are. 
The truth is I don't care anymore. 
I know that you don't care about me & never will. 

I finally know what I am to you. 
I'm broken but whatever. I've been broken before and time will mend this. 
I have loved ones, scriptures, quotes, hugs. I have all that I need to forget you. 

I'm giving myself till the end of the day to stop crying over you. 
Thankfully I'm sick and can pretend that these tears are from this terrible sickness that I've come down with.

I'm probably crazy. I probably thought too much into this.  
But I do know my worth. I am valuable. 

and for those of you reading this. yes I'm okay. I promise.
I just keep opening my heart to people who don't care.
but I'm learning.
I love you guys

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Gray Days

March is starting off dreary. I'm terribly missing the sunshine and birds chirping and squirrels feasting and picnics in the soft grass.

I've just realized that there are 33 more days till I turn 23. Almost one full month. I want that day in april to come here as quickly as possible. I'm tired of 22 and am ready to be classified as one year older, one year wiser, one year closer to where I need to be.

I have been rethinking some things recently. I'm always rethinking though.

My lecture is about to start. Oh yeah and I made some acquaintances in two of my classes. Mission completed.