Saturday, November 3, 2012

I Wish

For the past two years I have been in this little situation. Well actually it is a big situation. Here is the problem: I have absolutely no clue what to do with my life....job wise that is. You see I am already enrolled in college and by the end of this year I should have my associates degree (hopefully) but after I have that little piece of paper that says "hooray, you completed your associates degree: by the way this 'diploma' does not really mean anything," I don't know what to do after that. Do I still go to school? Do I just take a break for a while and see if maybe I will figure it out then? I don't even think I am making sense right now. I am just scared and I feel that I should know already what I should be doing. I turned 20 this year this is the beginning of my adult life. It scares me. I have these dreams, these huge dreams but I don't know how to achieve them or what path to even take in the right direction. I am picturing my life beautifully but in reality all thats happening in my life is confusion. I do not want to fall or be left behind with everyone else my age. But I feel like I am falling behind the crowd. I just wish that I knew like everyone else knows. I wish life was easier than how I imagined it to be. I wish my dad was still alive so he could help me out. I wish I had answers to all of my questions. I wish for many many things right now.