Confidence

Thursday, October 23, 2014





I was feeling so confident this day. I don't know if it was my outfit or my hair being pulled back into a low bun, which I never really do. Maybe it was because I was feeling like a little french lady in my black & white stripes. Who knows. All I know is that I was groovin and movin this day. 



Here is a quote for you all that I fell deeply in love with. It was written by everyones most beloved writer: 
"She was beautiful, but not like those girls in the magazines. She was beautiful, for the way she thought. She was beautiful, for the sparkle in her eyes when she talked about something she loved. She was beautiful, for her ability to make other people smile, even if she was sad. No, she wasn't beautiful for something as temporary as her looks. She was beautiful, deep down to her soul." 
- F. Scott Fitzgerald

Milky Chance

Tuesday, October 21, 2014






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Top 4 cool things that have happened to me while at work:
4. The surprising encounter with that guy from London
3. The small interaction that I had with Jeff Goldblum (please come back to me Jeff)
2. Meeting Milky Chance & being put on their guest list
1. That sweet incredibly handsome Canadian
*although 1 & 2 come pretty close to being at a tie.

If you follow me on instagram then you already know the story of me meeting Milky Chance. 
It was really cool and they were so sweet to have put me on their guest list. I'm so glad that I am the type of person that loves talking to people because if it wasn't for that then I would not have ever started a conversation with them and found out what band they were in. Those guys are sweet, thats for sure.
If you have never heard of them before then I suggest you do your ears a favor a listen them.
Buzzfest was fun. It wasn't really my type of scene but it was really cool to see Switchfoot & Young the Giant live. 

During the show I ran into one of my old guy friends from high school so that was nice to catch up on how we were. Then after, my sister and I were wandering around the area to find some place to eat. We spotted a really cool looking restaurant and decided to check it out. It turned out to be an amaaaaaaaaazing burger place. Literally the best burger I have ever had in my entire life. ENTIRE LIFE. I think it was called Burgerfi or something like that? You would think that they would have good wifi at a place with the word "fi" at the end….but actually their wifi was totally crap. 

This past weekend was seriously one of the coolest & most random. I really needed that. 

Anyways, I hope you all had a really good weekend :)



Hey October

Saturday, October 11, 2014

Last week was good to me. It was filled with good company from friends, meeting new faces, and striking up those types of conversations that really get your heart beating a little faster because you are letting out every bit of emotion that is in you. During those conversations you don't care what they learn about you or if they'll judge you. You just know that they are there listening and really thats all that anyone can do with me right now is just listen.
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I chiseled out another pathway into my already confusing scary future…meaning I changed my major again. This time will definitely be the last time. I have a goal and you better believe I'm going to stick to it.
I can't wait to have some overly stressed out college student come to me years down the road gasping for hope and breath because they won't know which major to choose. Thats when I'll let out a small laugh followed with a sigh and say "my dear I was in the exact same boat as you, let me tell you a little story…." Then that student will tell their friends my story, and they will tell their friends, it will be a forever game of telephone, and my story of Not Knowing What Major To Choose will forever be engraved into the minds of college kids everywhere. They'll all remember me when they lay in bed at night thinking about their future. I would become the Mother Teresa to 20 somethings all over this world. They would write articles and books about me. Quotes of my story will be placed into graduation speeches everywhere.

Maybe things won't be that extreme. But it's okay to dream every once in a while.
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I have found out recently that when I'm sad the best place for me to go is the fine arts museum. I went the day after you left, just because I felt the need to go, and as I found myself standing in front of some of my favorite paintings I cried. They were tears of sadness, mixed in with astonishment, mixed in with the final realization of where I should be.
I found myself needing to go again last week so I went once more and this time, with a friend. I had different senses come out of me that I couldn't quite put my finger on. But they were nice.
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I still have been missing you. But I have found that as the weeks go by the days that I let out some of those sad tears seem to be less and less. Hopefully soon I'll get to the point where I don't think about you as much. But I don't think that I will ever stop thinking about you. Mainly because I really do love the smile that comes across my face when I think of those sweet memories that we had together. I keep saying this to myself, but I just don't understand why I feel this way. And I may never understand.
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I am looking forward to this month though. October is the season of new beginnings. Meaning the beautiful changes in the weather, the start of the holiday season, the changing of my wardrobe because hello cooler temps, and always the start of new goals.
I'm going to attempt to make cronuts this month. Yes y'all heard me right. Cronuts. Emma Chapman put out a new recipe and I'm going to try and incorporate some unique flavors into them. Hopefully they will turn out okay.
I may begin to do my christmas shopping this month also…and christmas crafting. Eeeek excitement y'all.

xo

The Truth Is...

Monday, October 06, 2014



...I'm doing things to keep my mind off of you.
Doing the things that I should be doing,
some good,
some not so good.
They work, but its always only temporary relief.

...I should not have seen you that last time.
Saying goodbye again was twice as hard.

…I don't know why I fell for you so hard
even after knowing you for such a small amount of time.
But I know that you're a special one.
Truly were a special one to me.

...I hope you're happy. I hope you're doing well.
I hope you have a wonderful birthday.
The truth is...I hope you miss me as much as I miss you.
A small part of me believes that you do.

xo