I Wish

Saturday, November 03, 2012

For the past two years I have been in this little situation. Well actually it is a big situation. Here is the problem: I have absolutely no clue what to do with my life....job wise that is. You see I am already enrolled in college and by the end of this year I should have my associates degree (hopefully) but after I have that little piece of paper that says "hooray, you completed your associates degree: by the way this 'diploma' does not really mean anything," I don't know what to do after that. Do I still go to school? Do I just take a break for a while and see if maybe I will figure it out then? I don't even think I am making sense right now. I am just scared and I feel that I should know already what I should be doing. I turned 20 this year this is the beginning of my adult life. It scares me. I have these dreams, these huge dreams but I don't know how to achieve them or what path to even take in the right direction. I am picturing my life beautifully but in reality all thats happening in my life is confusion. I do not want to fall or be left behind with everyone else my age. But I feel like I am falling behind the crowd. I just wish that I knew like everyone else knows. I wish life was easier than how I imagined it to be. I wish my dad was still alive so he could help me out. I wish I had answers to all of my questions. I wish for many many things right now. 

Little Blue Dress

Monday, October 29, 2012





For some strange reason people assume that women feel good in either a "little black dress" or even a "little red dress" - not for me. I feel my best in my little blue dress. I think I would cry if I ever wore a red dress because I know that everyone in the room would stare at me, because hello...the color red attracts attention and having all eyes on me would kill me. Then there is the black dress and that color is just plain boring and sad. But a blue dress? It's perfect. It attracts attention but only in the slightest way, not only that but I do actually feel my best in this color. I have gotten so many compliments on how I can pull off this color, so I suppose that this shade of blue is just right for me. Sadly this is the only of item of clothing that I have in this color. So I am challenging myself to try and figure out different ways to wear this dress. I will post all of the ways that I figure out how to change it up. This is going to be fun!